Hi Guys

I miss you.

Miss you too, Mesh'la!

How's life been treating you? I've decided to keep quiet about my life because it's always the same old complaints that never change so why bother annoying everyone else with them, right?

Good to hear from you again.

Take care!
Ms.MaraJade

lol

Well, having a bit of trouble finding motivation for college at the moment, and no idea what I want to do with my life, but otherwise I'm doing pretty well. Fiance finally found a job so we can afford rent, yay!

And I'm not annoyed by hearing about your life, just so you know. If there's something going on and you need to talk about it, then by all means let it out! I know how that goes.

Hey Mesh'la!

Sorry to hear about your lack of motivation with college, but I guess it comes and goes in waves, depending on what courses you're in the midst of and how inspiring they are.

I'm happy to hear that your fiance has found a job, however. That's probably a HUGE relief in this job market!

As for my "everyday" troubles that just revolve around and around...well, my husband is *STILL* trying to get himself a decent job with decent pay. He's currently working part-time, and sometimes the business is doing so bad, he gets hours cut to nothing. He went on a couple interviews, but it seems the only jobs out there are those that want you to "invest your money in our business" scams. Ugh.

Me, I'm roller-coastering emotionally ever since that miscarriage. I keep thinking I'm over it and I'm doing fine, then when my cycle comes around for the *that* time, I get depressed. This past month, I was four days late...which I normally wouldn't even think about EXCEPT my temperature (yes, I chart with a basal thermometer using the FAM method) kept going UP into the third range of temperatures that usually signifies a pregnancy...only to have my temperature suddenly plumment...and yep, along came my broken heart. My husband told me the other night that I'm now "obsessed" with trying to get pregnant, but I'm not getting any younger...36 is creeping up fast in November. I can't seem to get over the fact that if I didn't have that dang miscarriage, I would be almost 5 months along, and that's the most FUN time of pregnancy (at least it was with my son).

So, that's the same old, same old that I figure no one wants to keep hearing.

Thanks for letting me vent.

I MISS YOU GUYS TOO. Mesh, I know what you mean about losing motivation. My best friends are graduating this year and I still have 3 more to go. I keep telling myself it's going to be worth it, and I at least have moving in with my fiance next summer to look forward to. Sigh.

MAR'BUIR. I want you to be better. I think about you a lot, I hope things can start looking up for you. Maybe in the future adoption could be an option if things don't work out?

Catika wrote:

MAR'BUIR. I want you to be better. I think about you a lot, I hope things can start looking up for you. Maybe in the future adoption could be an option if things don't work out?

Thanks, Catika, for your concerns!

As for adoption, unless $20-30,000 suddenly lands in my lap, there's no chance. I believe Dose (but I could be wrong) had suggested that to me a couple months ago, and one of my friends looked into that for themselves. Unless you have a good lawyer and a LOT of cash, adoption is not as easy (or cheap) as you think...which really SUCKS because there's a LOT of kids who need good homes, but they're all tied up in that stupid red tape.